31.12

一年里的最后一天
无论如何，心里有些感慨
开心与伤感
五味参杂

新的一年
我非常期待
我期待是因为一月一号要去伦敦
我是时候要好好放假了！

一年里的最后一天
也就是今天
我祝大家
新年快乐

圣诞聚餐

我不喜欢过分喧哗的环境
朋友觉得我最经典的comment 世上次在西班牙的酒吧外面
我说了一句：“Are we going in? Very crowded wor...>.<”
基本上，这种地方是越热闹越好玩的，但我却根本不这么认为。
所以我说，我根本不适合过分拥挤的环境。
我爱与朋友聚餐
温馨的环境、三五好友，再加美食
圣诞节那天 付了1.5倍的的士钱，去朋友的家聚餐
火鸡、蛋糕还有小点心
畅谈大家的生活和工作经验
我真得很享受那温馨的晚餐
大家都笑得很灿烂

三天

还有三天
我好期待
终于可以离开诺丁汉
到伦敦逛逛
让自己好好放假~

not to be known

I know it doesn't mean anything
but it sounded so wrong in so many ways
probably the answer shouldn't be revealed

Snow

It's snowing again
I feel blessed to walk in the snow
I enjoy the peaceful moment when the snow falls to the earth
It's just simply beautiful
I hope the snow can last a little longer
For us to have a white Christmas

Fair

I think God is always fair in some ways.
When you gain fame and money, you will have to lose your privacy and freedom.
When you wanted a good body figure, you will have to keep yourself away from cakes and chocolates.
For example, I've gained my overseas living experience, but I lost my time spending with my family.
So, there is always a price for the things that you want.
To be honest, nothing is free in your life.
You can only get it when you pay for it.
The most important is, you must be happy with what you have and where you are.

White Christmas please

It's white out there
I hope it will stay a little longer
We are all hoping for a white christmas!

雪

白雪漫天纷飞
我在大雪中漫步
我伸出双手
让雪花轻轻降落在我的手心
看那白雪在我手心中融化
下雪是寒冬唯一值得期待的美景
因为那银白的世界
很凄美
很浪漫

冬雪

冬季寒冷
漫天飘雪
你牵着我的手
漫步刺骨寒风
你说冬季的寒冷是为百花盛开的春季作准备
最重要的是你在我身边
一起看那一皓皓白雪
为我拍去落在我长发上的雪花
还有为我冰冷双手带来一丝丝温暖
可惜的是
后来
你忘了

Christmas mode

To be honest, although this is my third December staying in the United Kingdom, this year is the first time that I’m getting the Christmas atmosphere in the UK. Sadly, I’ve been spending the last two December busying with my studies and preparation for the exam in early January. Oh well, back to this year. As Christmas is approaching, we are getting busier and busier at my work place. I am basically working working and working hard all the time. Oh god…I spent 2 hours + to get a 4 pages stock order done on last Saturday. Normally, I just need less than 20 or 30 minutes to get 1 stock report done. The reason that I’m spending longer time than normal is because I keep being interrupted and being pulled to the store front to serve the customers. And amazingly, we done double amount of work compared to normal Saturdays, with the same amount of staffs.

So, I went to the city centre to do some shopping yesterday. The only phrase that I can describe the city centre is ‘people mountain people see’. Basically every single shop is full of people. It’s so hard to move around to choose the things I want. So now, I know how’s Christmas in UK like.

By the way, I’m really looking forward for Christmas. And yes, I’ll be getting a long weekend!! Yay~~
We also planned for a few gathering during Christmas period. I’m really in the mode of Christmas now!!!

离我远一点

CY告诉我
在这间店里工作千万别让人懂你是华裔
因为店里有些上了年纪的男性顾客对华裔女子特别钟爱
那时我想到就忍不住发笑
我现在也终于见识到了
真的想开门见山
跟他们说：“eh先生，拜托你走远一点，本小姐没空理会！”
无奈~~~

很讨厌啊！

我最最最最最最最讨厌跟customer service的人沟通！！！
不如customer service改名为company protection service吧！
如果贵公司不是有心为顾客服务就不要设立顾客服务专柜啦！
真的岂有此理！

电话

一通电话
早上八点(GMT+8)/凌晨十二点(GMT)
吵醒了妈妈
满是歉意
还有
安定

在灵感中钓灵感

在灵感中钓灵感这个名字
早已不适合我的部落格了
因为我好久好久没有写什么好的文章了
那么我是否应该换名？
我想了一想
很伤脑筋
因为我
想不到其他名字

X Factor

Everyone is discussing about X Factor, and I’m joining the crowd too. To be honest, this is the first UK show that I’m following every single week. Even if I missed the premier/live show, I’ll just watch the replay or from You Tube. In case you are still wondering what is X Factor, it’s a very famous singing competition in the UK.

So last week, John and Edward has left the show. So many people hate them, but I have to admit that I actually quite like them. To be honest, I can’t remember everyone’s performance for every single week, but I can only remember their performance. It’s true that there are many better singers in the competition, but I do think that they are the most entertaining one. I know that they can’t win the competition and I’m glad that they have stayed for so many weeks. Although now they have left the competition, I do hope to see them on the TV again in the future. I’m just wondering, is there many people said that they hate them, but keep voting them secretly to keep them in the competition??

Here comes one my favorite from them


The next person I hope to be out is Lloyd. Although he did improve over the weeks, he is still the weakest among the remaining contestants. Well, probably his cute looking might keep him survive in the show. Sorry for being mean, but I do want the really good one to stay.

At this stage, I hope Olly will win the competition. His singing might not be as strong as Danyl Johnson or Stacey, but I think he is the best in terms of overall presentation. I felt like melting when I first saw him singing Robbie William’s She’s The One.


Alright, enough of X Factor. It’s time for me to sleep now. ciao

不是那么正面

如果要在大庭广众之下将关于公司负面的话，最好就用不为人知的外星语文。虽然这里不是大庭广众，但也是人人可到此一游的地方，难保不会有人看到。虽然中文不是外星语文，但至少在英国不是大众语文，也至少我的同事没有一个人懂中文。看完这几句，也许你已经想到接下来的，都是有关公司的不是那么正面的话。不是那么正面=less positive, 但是还是positive, 而不是负面 (negative)，所以请不要在我背后插我一到，因为我根本没有讲公司的坏话！

我读了四年大学，拿了个硕士学位，成为了一个实习药剂师，就是为了要成为一个药剂师。成为药剂师这一段路步步艰辛，虽然我不能担保日后成为伟大并万民敬仰的药剂师，但至少要做一个尽职的药剂师。药剂师除了要确保病人的医疗安全、服务大众，其中一项重要任务就是帮国家省钱，减少不必要的开支。很多时候，我真的不赞成公司一些吸干英国国家医疗服务局的策略来增加盈利。可是，虽说我不赞成，但作为一个小小的职员，我实在是做不了什么。老实说，我实在实在是不想跟他们狼狈为奸、同流合污！

虽说这是一间非常出名，有信誉的大公司，但我却非常不同意公司的工作环境。从我7月开始工作至今，大部分的时候都是人手短缺，只有小部分时候是够人的。所以，大部分时候都要特别勤劳，把别人的工作当自己的工作。也许，公司是担心我们在工作时间太过悠闲，所以让我们必须一个人做三个人的工作。对于公司的苦心，我实在是要深深感激。 还有还有，我这个实习药剂师的年薪，是英国国家医疗服务局付的， 我在公司应该算是多余的闲人，但是我真的难得有闲。很多时候还要牺牲我的周末和读书时间，真的是不得不感谢公司时时刻刻都在培养我们要牺牲小我完成大我的的精神。

Okla…今天就到此为止。这些情况不是我一人之力可以改善的，无谓再长篇大论，不如争取时间与周公会面。

回不了

我们说了这么多年
终于搬家了
我住了20多年的家
也卖掉了
我7月离家后
竟然就这样一去不复返
我不敢想像
3个月后我站在我的家门口
却回不了家
那种感觉
会是怎样

deeply in trouble

oh...damn it!
look that the extra kgs that i've gained....
OMG!!! how am i suppose to lose it!!!
i'm seriously seriouly seriouly deeply in trouble!

看报

星洲日报2009年11月4日

“敦馬哈迪也說，華人把自己當成華人而不是馬來西亞人，那大馬當然無法達到國民團結的目標。”
亲爱的前首相，我敬爱的前首相，我不知道你是不是老了，所以思危不清晰了，还是你sot了，马来西亚华人何时不当自己是马来西亚人？我从来不会向别人介绍我是Chinese, 我只会告诉别人我是Malaysian。 马来西亚有那么多不公平政策，再加上保护某些种族的政策，试问国民愿意对这些政策屈服吗？试问在那么多不公平之下，团结容易吗？哪里有一个国家用肤色对待不同种族的？虽然说宪法下，人人平等，但是为什么有些人比较容易得到奖学金？为什么有些人买车买屋子的时候有折扣？为什么有些人不用做什么，就可以在大公司里得到３０％的股份？为什么为什么为什么？你告诉我！这些政策，根本就是你有份弄出来的！

“他指責受華文教育者甚至不讓自己的孩子靠近馬來人的孩子。”
Excuse me, 请问各位何时排斥马来人朋友？这些根本就是政治人物在胡说八道！不，应该是胡说九道，因为比胡说八道更严重！

琴乐

久违的琴声
从指缝间流出
虽然那是不完美的乐章
但
内心
是安定

幸福饼

苏打饼
不是苏打饼
是我千里迢迢带来
能够解忧的
幸福饼

搬家

后天
家人要搬家了
我却在英国
待我回家之时
却也
再也回不去原来的家了

回顾 Review

一月 January
Connemara, Ireland

二月 February
University Park, Nottingham

三月 March
University Park, Nottingham

四月 April
University Park, Nottingham

我想

我想，如果我没有来英国读书，我会不会是今天的自己?
我会不会就平平淡淡那样在吉隆坡度过我的一生？
会不会永远都跳不出框框看我自己？

我想，如果我现在不是在英国，也许我不会那么珍惜自己在家里的分分秒秒。
也不会深刻地体会到与家人一起时的幸福。
也不会为自己拥有的一切而深深感恩。

我想，如果我没有在英国生活几年，也许我没有机会好好看世界。
也许我没有机会看那世界不同的风景。
也不知道这世界是那么多的无限。

我想，如果我没有在英国度过几个春夏秋冬，也许我永远无法看清四季的美丽。
也许我还在傻傻期盼漫天雪花纷飞的美丽，却不知雪融前夕的丑陋。
也许我还在埋怨马来西亚四季皆夏的沉闷，却不知温暖天气的幸福。

我想，我离开英国以后，和家人一起的日子会过得很幸福。
到那时候，也许会开始怀念英国，
那些我现在拥有的日子。

23 July 2009

The days we had in all these years are certainly one of the best parts of my life.
Thank you for creating the great memories together.

生活

我很久没有好好为我的部落格写一篇文章了。词穷？灵感被生活磨平？
工作、工作、还是工作……有时候我也忘了我自己那么忙为了什么。
没有人愿意星期六做工，结果我牺牲了我的星期六。虽然没有太大关系，但我还是忍不住叹气。
如果我现在在吉隆坡，我一定protest到够够力！
或许我应该学习英国的邮政职员或是火车司机，不爽就on strike,管他地球还需不需要转动。

这几个月去了很多地方巴黎、伦敦、西班牙，请不要说我‘晒命’，我确实有少少麻木了。
欧洲的风景是很美，却也只是美丽而已。
总是觉得欠缺了一点共鸣，也许再美丽也不属于自己。
所以接下来几个月，就不去旅行了，虽然欧洲还有很多地方还未踏足。

秋季树叶泛黄，落叶铺满了青绿的草地。
不知不觉进入了深秋，我还将时光停留在夏季阳光灿烂的时刻。
只是，阳光每一天一天在减少，却让人不得不接受事实。
我不喜欢冬天的降临，虽然已经在英国度过了两个冬。

我的日子是沉闷，甚至枯燥乏味。
现在唯有倒数回家的日子，至少为我的生活增添一丝丝光彩。

希望

我希望我
现在
就在吉隆坡

原来

毕业过后几个月
我一直没有太大感触
今天回去大学
走了一趟我从前走过的路
才发现
原来
我
回不去了

穷

突然发现
接下来这四个星期
我只可以用100镑
为什么我升级为受薪人士了
还是
穷~

生日快乐

我今天为我的同事送了两盒糕点
感激他们为我的照顾
我为他们对我的友善感恩

感激Hwee Yin和Kae Shin为我安排的那简单又有意义的生日晚餐
虽然离家很远
虽然我想家
虽然我想有家人为我庆生
但是有他们的用心
让我觉得温暖

还有
谢谢大家给我的礼物
我会珍而重之
感激大家给我的祝福
我的facebook profile从来没有那么热闹

还有要想向Xuyi, Huilee 和Shuyi道歉
请原谅我对你们所做的伤害
辜负了你们一番心意
我
后悔了

亲爱的杨慧欣
生日快乐
下次别人问我自己的年龄时
请不要犹豫

礼物

若问我想要什么礼物
其实我什么都不缺
只要此刻你想起我
给我祝福
我心里就有大大的感动
一分简单的心意
就是最珍贵的礼物

生日快乐

九月.秋

不知不觉又秋天了
这是我在英国的第三个秋
看着树叶泛黄
铺满宁静的小径
在蓝蓝的晴空下
我静静看着
不觉
痴了

我想

我想，在我想诉苦的时候
有人将耳朵借我
我想，在我累的时候
有人将肩膀借给我
我想，在生活苦闷的时候
有人为我增添 一点点的浪漫
我想，在我又需要的时候
就有人会毫不犹豫地支持我
我想，我想的
都会实现

影子

药剂行里来了两个刚刚到达英国的马来西亚女生
她们是小我两年的师妹
我在她们身上看到了我从前的影子
曼彻斯特的回忆在我脑海里浮现
那些懵懂的日子
很努力学习新文化的日子
每一镑每一便士省着用的日子
还有那时别人不了解我的不明白

她们比我幸运多了
至少
就算全部药剂行里的职员都不了解她们
还有我
能了解她们的不明白
因为这些
都是我曾经有过的日子

倦

政治乱像
如三岁小孩玩泥沙般的幼稚恶斗
说不出的厌恶
与厌倦

归

九月六日距离二月七日
刚好五个月
用530.10镑
换佳节团圆的时刻
团聚有时期
心中
踏实和安定

红豆

方大同的《红豆》
感受到很浪漫的感觉
深深爱上他的声音
无法自拔

Freaking busy

Possibly this is the worst day of my Pre-Reg placement. Or probably not, the worst is yet to come.
For your information when you reading this, a minimum of 2 person is required to run a dispensary in the UK pharmacy. 1 person is the pharmacist (responsible for all accuracy checking and all clinical checks), and another person to help the pharmacist (prepare prescription and check the dispensing that are done by the pharmacist).
As a pre-reg pharmacist and/or pharmacist, you are not only responsible for the dispensary. Serving the healthcare counter is one of your responsibilities as well. So, in order to run a dispensary and healthcare counter, you need a bare minimum of 3 people. That’s means, 1 pharmacist, 1 dispenser (help in prescription), and 1 healthcare assistant are required to keep the pharmacy running.

I think me and the pharmacist are superb today. Let me tell you why. We suppose to have 2 people to run the dispensary and 2 people for the healthcare counter today (this is considered as very little people cuz we normally have at least 3 people to work in the dispensary alone). One of the healthcare assistant was sick, so we down to three. The other healthcare assistant can only work until 3pm. This is really fantastic cuz that’s means from 3-5.30 pm, only 2 people (the pharmacist and I) left to run the dispensary and healthcare counter. Seriously, this is freaking crazy cuz me and the pharmacist work until almost gone mad. First of all, we already have long waiting for prescriptions, and we already cannot finish the work at the dispensary. But, we still need to run between healthcare counter and the dispensary. Sometimes, even serving the photo counter (cuz the photo counter is just next to the dispensary)!

Luckily the pharmacist decided to close the dispensary between 12-1pm for lunch and stop the prescriptions from coming in for a while. At least, both of us manage to sit down for a while (a very short while) and grab some food. That so called lunch hour is not actually our lunch…we were just trying to get some work done instead of dragging the work and stress ourselves to maximum.

I seriously seriously seriously think that my store needs to get more staff in. ‘No budget’ should not be the excuse for shortage of staffs. I’m not complaining. I’m just thinking that, if the store is so short of staffs, how are can we provide good service to the customer? Will you be able to spend so much time with a customer when you know that the waiting queue is so long? Will you be able to do everything correctly when you only have sssssssooooooooooo limited time to get everything done?

Right, I shall stop here…got back pain because of my work load was too high. Anyway, I’m glad that we’ve survived for today. Thanks Rachel, I think I’ve learnt something today.

Time to rest, ciao!

Green Park

Green Park, London

I looked like a mad lady when I was trying to take this picture.

歌

我听
方大同的《为你写的歌》
在清晨上班的时候
在一个人吃饭盒的时候
在下班后很累很累的时候
在夜阑人静的时候
温暖我的心窝
那么
我就不会那么寂寞

not abandoning

i'm not abandoning my blog
i've disappeared for such a long time is becuz i dont have internet connection
just got back online yesterday
my blog will be active soon

Misery

I’ve done something right from the patient’s perspective.
But it’s stupid from the company’s perspective.
So, to sum up, I’m not sure I’ve done something right or wrong.
Probably, sometimes it’s not a good idea to be too kind.
Just makes me feel miserable for the rest of the day.

July 2009

11 July 2009 Kuala Lumpur-London-Nottingham
12 July 2009 Nottingham
13 July 2009 Nottingham-Paris
14 July 2009 Paris
15 July 2009 Paris
16 July 2009 Paris-London
17 July 2009 London
18 July 2009 London
19 July 2009 London-Cambridge *Visited Yew Keat
20 July 2009 Cambridge-Oxford
21 July 2009 Oxford-Manchester *2nd visit for Old Trafford Stadium
22 July 2009 Manchester-Nottingham
23 July 2009 Nottingham *Graduation
24 July 2009 Nottingham-London
25 July 2009 London * Goodbye papa and mama
26 July 2009 London-Nottingham * Travelling alone again. Start packing
27 July 2009 Nottingham * Visited bank, council tax, hunt for new house, packing
28 July 2009 Nottingham * First day of my job

48小时前

去了一趟KLCC找淑盈吃午餐
之前就答应她要去找她的
可是拖了很久都没有机会
还好临走之前我也做到了

ps: 淑盈，我在你的blog出现了好多次，是时候轮到你在我的blog粉墨登场了！哈哈！

开车向KLCC出发时用心体会吉隆坡的风景
还剩下少过48小时
我的心中满是不舍
这几年
吉隆坡越来越美丽
越来越有大都市的风范了
我为身为吉隆坡人而感到骄傲
我爱吉隆坡
深深地爱着这里

最后
独家献上我家笨狗的沙龙照
笨狗懒洋洋地躺在地毯上吭骨头
我拿相机拍它
它还会自动望着相机镜头
-_-''

静止

时间仿佛静止了
很久很久以前
或
很久很久以后
还是会一样
停格在这个空间

忘了时间的古城

Malacca 马六甲

June 2009

UK again

This is my last weekend staying in Malaysia. When ever I think of going back to UK, my heart is beating faster. I think i'm just too happy to stay at home and reluctant to go back to UK. I'm happy to be in Malaysia even I'm alone. I guess one of the reason that i hate to be in UK is because sometimes i feel i'm being prisoned. Not physically, but mentally.

Right, i just hope that my last summer holiday of my life will never ends. Why can't it last forever? Leaving again for UK marks another stage of my life. The end of my degree and the start of working life. Well.....I hope...everything can go smoothly.

迷.张爱玲

日子过得太无聊
前几天有机会去书局逛了一趟
买了一本张爱玲的《倾城之恋》
打算充实自己一下
看了第一个故事《留情》
细腻的故事叙述
淡淡的幸福
配上淡淡的忧伤
我
迷上了

送行者

电影院外人山人海
排队买票的都是Transformer的支持者
而我选择了一部比较冷门的电影
来自日本的《送行者The Departure》
剧情没有让人屏息的高潮迭起
细细述说送行者的故事的这部电影
却能让人回味
和思考生命的意义
这一个午后
一个人的电影
细细品味生命的真谛

Jolie

Jolie刚刚来的时候的样子，那时家里没有笼，让她在箱子里住了一天。

两个星期的时候

长大一点了

Jolie & Kiki在家里的庭院里玩。Kiki是弟弟的朋友的狗。

昨天在宠物医院里可怜兮兮，让人心疼的样子。Jolie, 希望你快快康复，我们等着你回来呢！

给亲爱的Jolie

亲爱的Jolie
虽然我知道你很聪明
但是我还是喜欢叫你笨狗
我喜欢看你因为贪吃而追着我讨食物的样子
也很喜欢看你很想跳上沙发但又跳不上来跟我讨食物的顽皮模样
我喜欢看你知道我们从外面回来而兴奋的样子
我喜欢看你用两只脚走路的精彩表演
也很喜欢看你神采飞扬的双眼

亲爱的Jolie
我从来不喜欢家里养狗
可是你让我学会给你喂养
也学会把你抱在怀里
是你的可爱让我接受你成为我们家里的一份子
对，我说你是我家里的一份子
我早已将你当成我家里的小baby
我甚至羡慕你可以比我常留在家里

亲爱的Jolie
我给你说声对不起
我应该早一点发现你的健康有问题
不然不会把你推入这个绝境

亲爱的Jolie
我给你说声对不起
我不应该让你去捉老鼠
因为这样而受到细菌感染
才会导致肾衰竭

亲爱的Jolie
你要振作一点
也要努力加油
我等着你回来
我还想看你追着我讨食物的贪吃模样
等着你回来叫你笨狗……

esprit

很快就要成为职场新丁
为了搜寻工作服而跑了几次购物商场
很开心今天买到70%折扣的esprit工作裙
也突然发现
我的衣橱大部分都是esprit的衣服
我就快成为esprit的最佳代言人
那么
esprit几时才要给我奖赏呢？

Herbal Medicine

I went to an herbal medicine plantation in Seremban today. It makes me feels so wanted to write this post now even though I’m very tired already. I’ve listen to a talk about herbal medicine given by a person who have done a lot of researches on herbal medicine and he named himself as ‘Professor in Herbal Medicine’. The talk was last for 40mins-1 hour. There are many points that I’m agree of, but more points that I’m disagree of. As I am a future pharmacist, I feel that I have a responsible to correct the misconceptions about herbal medicine.

First of all, herbal medicines are obtained from herbal plant. So, these medicines are from the natural source. Since it’s obtained from natural source, it’s safe to consume and free from side effects. Agree? Let’s spend 10 seconds to think about it.

The professor had recommended an herbal plant that can help in heart problem. So, I asked him whether there is any side effect of the plant. He answered me so definitely that the consuming the herbal plant does not brings any side effect. I replied with a smile and did not continue further. Dear all, come back to the question I’ve asked above. If you do agree with that, I would like to tell you that you are absolutely wrong. There are no medicines that are free from side effects, this includes all conventional medicines and herbal medicines.

I’m sure that everyone is familiar with ginseng. Ginseng is well known in the Chinese community that is able to restores, builds ups and maintains the whole body. However, high incidences of side effects were reported with the use of ginseng, which includes diarrhoea, imsomnia, and hypertension.

St John’s Wort is another common herbal medicine (probably not that common in Asia) that is a widely used in the treatment of mild to moderate depression. St John’s Wort is found to interact with a large number of medicines such as warfarin, oral contraceptives, theophyllin and digoxin. This herbal medicine causes a change in our liver enzymes and affects the metabolism of other medicines and may lead to failure of treatment. It’s very important to consult the opinion of the healthcare professionals and avoid St John’s Wort if that cannot be taken with your other medications.

It is important to know that herbal medicines are classified as food and they are controlled by the food law, not the medicine law. They are not as strictly controlled as the licensed medicines. These products can make claims about their benefits to health without the need of proving their efficacy. It is notable that the active ingredient of herbal medicine that is responsible for the claimed effects is often unknown. In addition, the percentage of active ingredients can vary between different brands. As I said, these products are not that strictly controlled, their safety is not guaranteed. In the context of safety perspective, I would say probably the conventional medicines are much safer. The conventional medicines are well tested before they can be licensed and there are so much safety data available.

The main reason that many people are taking herbal medicine is because they believed that these medicines can bring benefits to their health. However, would you still take the herbal medicine if their safety is not guaranteed? The majority of the population do not required health supplement if they take a healthy balanced diet. As you can obtain all nutrients from a healthy balanced diet, why do you need supplements?

So, my recommendation is, it’s important to practice healthy balanced diet. You don’t have to risk your life or waste your money on supplements if you practiced a healthy balanced diet.

再循环

我把大学第一年和第二年的笔记叠好了
准备拿去再循环
心里满是不舍

除牙记

昨天动手术切除了第二颗智慧牙
为什么我说是动手术而不是拔？
是因为我的智慧牙与别人的生得与众不同
必须动手术将它切除

原本我也不想理它，任由它留在我的嘴巴里
但是，由于它生的位置不理想，刷牙的时候刷不好，所以牙齿烂了。
这颗智慧牙影响到前面那只牙齿也烂，所以不得不切除。
这样动一动刀，用了一千三百多零吉，还要不舒服几天
除了叹气，也不能怎样
谁叫我的智慧牙那么与众不同？

昨晚吐血吐了一个晚上(流血不止)
今天的状况是好多了
但是血还没完全停止从伤口流出来
这几天我只可以吃液状的食物
我想我这几天除了吃粥还是吃粥
好了，现在就去煮粥

没什么......

我发现我自己在家里时总是很少花时间写blog
我回来已经一个星期多了
没有发生什么事情让我特别想发表

走

我走了
可不可以不用再回来？

I need to runaway

I’m glad that I’m going home soon, in a real soon. Or else, I can foresee that I’ll write endless posts to complain about my new friend. There are a few things that I really don’t understand, and will not ever understand.

How can 1 person used up the space of one and a half fridge to store food? (He used 1 small fridge and half of the large fridge. The large one is the one that 3 of us normally use.) And just now I noticed that many items in the fridge are actually expired. This is really disgusting!

How can people stands for not bathing for 3 days. Although the UK weather is not hot and does not make you sweat, isn’t it you will get dirty as well? How can he not clean himself for 3 days? Or probably longer than that……My house is so smelly now and we hardly breathe when we walk out of our room to the common area.

How can a person who stays long term in a place does not even got a single piece of fork and spoon? From pots to pans, bowl to plates, forks to spoons….he don’t even have a single piece. How can he expect so naturally that we are willing to be the provider of these utensils? PLEASE ASK FOR PERMISSION!! Please CLEAN my stuff PROPERLY after you have used it! I wouldn’t like to clean the stuff again after you have used it.

How can he does not have a single common sense on the safety of using a knife? If we didn’t notice that the knife was simply placed on the table after used, I’m sure that we got injured ald!

Why why why?? I just don’t understand why I have such housemate. Yucks!!! I can’t wait to run away from this house!!!

A new housemate

Right, before I left for home for summer holiday, my landlady rented the empty room in my house to an unknown guy. I still don’t know his name yet, but my impression about him is really very bad! I need to tell the story chronologically.

Last Thursday, my landlady msg me that she will be bringing people to come over to see the room and we don’t have to be there. Since we don’t need to be there to entertain her customer, we didn’t really care about it. I still remember I went to university to hand in my dissertation and Xuyi went to see her tutor. I got this msg from O2 said that I missed a called from my landlord. I did reply his call, but no one pick up. So, I didn’t care about it cuz I know that he will call me again if he has anything to tell me. Until about 3pm (I went back ald), someone came to my house and bang the main door of the house like he is going to break the door to enter the house. He banged so forcefully and scared Huilee and me. Huilee saw this guy from her room and we don’t dare to open the door for him. So, he left after a while. We were still in fear even he has left.

The next day, landlady brought a guy to see the room and that was the scary guy who banged the door very forcefully. Since we already have bad impression about him, we didn’t really want him to come in and stay with us. However, the landlady told us that she had sign the contract with him on Saturday. So, fine. Since we are going back home for 2 months, it doesn’t really matter cuz we won’t be seeing him a lot. No point arguing with my landlady cuz she is only able to recognize money.

The incident that makes me hate the guy so much was happened on last night. We were being told that the guy will move in today. However, 3 of us really didn’t expect him to move at such a great time! Have a guess on what time he moved in. any idea?

Tell u what, it was at 5 am in the morning! Curse him! Where got people move house at 5am in the morning?? I think he is the only person who is so inconsiderate. Bing and bang and woke up everyone in the house. Eh, you think you are the only person who stays here? Idiot, you don’t need to sleep doesn’t mean that everyone has to accompany you to stay awake! Idiot, can’t you move your stuff after 7 or 8 in the morning? Must it be 5am? My impression about him is really very very bad now. If can, I will give him negative mark! Huilee even thought that our house was being burgled!

Luckily I’m going home soon. I don’t think I can stand it if he is going to do more idiot stuff. Don’t feel like want to talk to him or see his face unless I really have to. Good bye to our peaceful life in Beeston.

The islands of clouds

April 2009

摄影

我喜欢摄影
喜欢用心去看世界的风景

我喜欢摄影
用与别人不同的角度看事情

我喜欢摄影
希望将最美的画面永远记录在我心底

我喜欢摄影
盼望有一天有人能记起
我曾经拍摄过让他们印象深刻的美丽

Towards the end of a degree

So, I’ve handed in my dissertation today. I went to the Student Union Print Shop to bind my dissertation and the staff told me that it takes 2 hours to get it done. For a while, I was stunned and don’t really know how to react, because I didn’t know that binding 2 documents will take ages. This will never ever happen in Malaysia, because I usually just pop into the shop and the binding will be done in less than 10 minutes. I really didn’t know that the print shop works so efficiently! So, I wasted 2 hours in School of Pharmacy just to wait for it to be done.

Right, now…I’m further away from a first class honour. Yes, I knew that I’ll definitely pass that project, but I don’t think I’ve done it well. It’s not that I’ve not work hard on it, but I just don’t think that I’ve done something really great. When everything comes near to an end, I just have a weird feeling that something at some where is just wrong. In addition, I’ve got a flavour of how nice is the personality of my project marker. So, I just don’t put high hope in it. Well, I’m not a greedy person. I do satisfy with a second upper class. A first class honour definitely will be one of the proudest things in my life if I could achieve it, but a second class wouldn’t make any different on my future as well. I will still be a Boots employee, and being stuck in the UK for another year.

Well well, I am 98% done for my degree at the moment. Just one more 2500 words essay to hand in and I’ll be done for my 4 years degree. I’m really looking forward for the day I am finish with my essay. 4 years is not a short period but I just feel the time flies really quickly. There are losses and gains in these 4 years. The greatest property that I’ve gained in these 4 years is the strong friendships with my university friends. I just can’t imagine the days I’ll be Beeston alone without your accompaniment. Especially, I’m so used to the time we spent together in Nottingham. How am I supposed to celebrate on my own for the coming Christmas?

Dear friends, do come and visit me always, do remember me always, and do miss me always. I’ll always be there when you need me for a hand. I’ll remember all the moments we spent together and treasure it forever. May our friendships grow stronger even we are not together. Friendship forever!

专心

泡一杯热美禄
放在桌上
让巧克力香味回荡在空气中
我现在要专心
专心

改革

虽然我不是很喜欢我们的现任首相，但不得不承认的是，那吉领导的新政府在上任里的几个星期还干得不错。有几项政策还不错的, 例如:

- 取消新经济政策的30%土族股权限制
- 非回教夫妻其中一方若改信回教，孩子依照原本的宗教信仰抚养
- 放宽投资银行、回教银行和保险业的外资股权限制

这些改革，都是我们期盼已久的改变。如今，新政府终于将它实现了。还有，不得不称赞的的是新政府对猪流感采取行动的速度比以往有所改善。目前，卫生部已经全面启动应急机制，防范猪流感的入侵。作为一个马来西亚子民，我觉得犹如黑暗中看见一道曙光。我希望这些改变不会只是‘新官上任三把火’，而后续无力。希望未来政府会有更多利民的政策，让全马来西亚人都受惠。

破旧陈新，我们已经等了太久了。

春天的声音

这张照片是春天刚刚开始时照的，还照得不错。有没有一点点SLR的feel? 拍摄的过程有点搞笑，还有我蹲在哪儿拍照时的pose也很不雅。我想，当时后路人经过时看见我，一定觉得我是傻的。我喜欢春天，因为春天总有很朝气的感觉。还有，春天总是给我一种瞬间千变万化的感觉，一错过就再也不能从来。就好像照片里的花朵，虽然现在还是春天，却已经看不见了。所以，我用心聆听春天的声音，希望能把最美丽的画面化成永远。

春

这是春天最美丽的时刻

念

今早迷糊中你给我说再见
空气中弥漫的香气
还在我身边回荡
我说我不介意
原来还是骗我自己
我想你为我送别
亲口跟我说再见

英国情缘

当我在说讨厌英国的生活同时
却也早已经被英国文化同化
当我开心地在家里度过我的假期时
却在某些方面对英国有些想念
至少在英国出门不必心惊胆战
也许在英国的两年
为我的人生留下不解的英国情缘

新鞋

上个星期用RM200买了一双很漂亮的新鞋
昨晚终于有机会
迫不及待秀新鞋
外头走了3个小时后
脚肿了个大大的水疱
痛
一拐一拐
现在鞋子没穿了
水疱还大大个残留在我的脚上

钓灵感

论文正在努力中
8000个字的论文还有一半未完成
最后的一半也是最难
谁叫我们找到与众不同的答案？
我在房间里天马行空了很多个晚上
还是不得不投降
别人的研究和论文我看了又看
厚厚一大叠已经阅读了的文章
寻找蛛丝马迹供我灵感
工作进行了那么多个晚上
我还在钓灵感

炒果条

回来，怎么可以错过这最特色的食物呢？！说真的，马来西亚的食物真的天下无敌。好吃且种类繁多，住在这里真的很幸福！

ps:华慷，我是故意post在这里，让你羡慕的。哈哈！

miki ojisan no mise

在Isetan KLCC买的Cheese Cake, 牌子就是miki ojisan no mise。Cheese的味道不会很重，但是蛋糕很新鲜和松软， 所以很好吃。这家店以前要在外面排队抢购才可以买到他们的蛋糕的。现在，他们的分行多了，就不用这样排队了。虽然我很久没有吃了，但味道还是很好！

驾车

真的觉得马来西亚人很像“山藩”
驾车横冲直撞
一点点耐心都不愿意给
驾烂车的自以为烂车一辆，可以乱乱撞
驾大车的自以为马路是他的，别人要靠边站
加摩多的自以为很有型，时速100公里/小时，比汽车还快
就是因为很多这些不知好歹的家伙
所以马路上那么多交通意外
还有很多人，以为犯法后请叔叔喝咖啡就可以平安无事
就是因为路上很多人渣再加执法不严
所以很多人驾车出门后就再也回不到家
阿弥陀佛
愿众位施主早日觉悟
善哉，善哉

Priceless

A London-Kuala Lumpur return ticket, GBP500
Spending a month at home, priceless

I'm glad to be home, really. It's feel so good to be together with my family, although I'm struggling to get my work to be done.

I re-take piano lesson and the teacher has picked up so many of my technical mistake. I was asked to correct my mistakes and play the song that I've learnt for a long time in next lesson. It's just feeling strange because I am learning something new, but actually new to me.

I love my mom's cooking so much! I do love to prepare dinner for them as well and I already cook the first dinner for them last night.

Right, i have a date with my cousin today. ciao!

i'm in dubai

I'm in Dubai!
currently having the most expensive pain au chocolat in the world！
I wanted to get Mc Value, but it's damn expensive at the airport. 1 Mc Value cost about 25 dirham. and...i'm damn kesian cuz I've only got 20 dirham.sob sob...i can't afford Mc Donalds in Dubai Airport!
Any way, I can't wait to get to my final destination in 8.5 hours! yeay~

念

从蚊子姐姐那里无意中看到了一张吉隆坡的照片
突然发现原来我对这城市有好多好多的思念
我打从心底
爱着这个城市

告假

我的宝贝跟我开了一个天大的玩笑
竟然在我最需要它的时候选择告假
这是我今早起来
最晴天霹雳的坏消息
现在我在学校的图书馆里用着公用电脑
却仍然无法相信它竟敢在这个重要关头告假！
最惨的是
今天是星期日
就算我上街也无法为宝贝找到医生
这就是英国
星期日不开店时这里的文化
我也没有办法
只好等到明天早上
才出去外面找电脑专家修理我的宝贝
唉~
如果你这样就归西了
我的人生就失去意义了！
宝贝，请不要死
我还需要你才能完成我堆积如山的功课！

too much work

I’ve got so much work to do, but I only have so little time. Sigh, I need to produce a 2500 words essay and hand it within 2 weeks time and I’ve got so much lab work going on. Next week I need to show my supervisor about my progress on my 8000 words dissertation. How can I get so much work done in so little time? Shall like just write crap and simply do it? I’m so lack of motivation and reluctant to start the work. Curse the stupid final semester! Sometimes I just don’t know why I am working on all these stuff. You know, for all the research and information I do for my dissertation is not going to help me when I’m practicing as a pharmacist. Customers won’t be interested to discuss about K-atp channel with me in the pharmacy. So, after completing the essay, I can actually dump everything away and never see it again. So, since this I can dump them after hand in the essay, what is the reason for me to work hard on it?

And yet, I still haven’t started to write my 2500 words essay which is going to due soon. I just hate the work so much! I feel so pressure but I’m still ending up doing nothing about my work. What I kept doing is all those irrelevant stuff. OMG, what’s wrong with me?!!!

Ok, it’s 11.20pm ald, and another day is gone. Let’s see what’s have I done today: Went to lab for another unfruitful session, went to student service centre, baked croissant, cook herbal chicken, fried prawn cracker, clean the kitchen and do laundry work. I’ve done a lot of work, but how many of them are relevant to my assignments? Damn…damn…damn….I really need more motivation to work hard on my assignments.

为你写的歌

我心里只有一个形容词
那就是感动
很少有那么一听就触动我的心的歌
歌曲还有英文版
同样那么好听
但我觉得中文版的歌词
很美很美

曲：方大同 詞：馬嵩惟 曲：方大同
耳朵借我　這幾分鐘　這首歌會替我說
妳在心中　怎麼形容　像荒漠開出花朵
原諒我的指頭在顫抖　是我把黑鍵當妳的手
如果妳心裡也能協奏　請妳對我輕輕點頭

＊這是爲妳寫的歌　充滿忐忑
像生命所有轉折　要妳認可
只等妳來唱和　我會在妳左右
Cause baby I wrote this, I wrote this for you

每次斟酌　每個段落　是妳應得的溫柔
每小節的　心跳觸動　想傳到妳的胸口
也沒有一時澎湃悸動　卻能在深秋細水長流
這世界什麼都會陳舊　除了妳回頭的微笑

REPEAT＊

每一天我願像銀河　陪伴著夜空
是否妳也願身邊永遠　有我
失去記憶一樣哼著　讓和絃在我們心口流動
直到兩雙手都彈皺了　我還依舊爲妳寫歌

REPEAT＊

Oh its a singalong song, thats not too long
Its when I think about you then I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cause baby I wrote this, I wrote this for you

又来蛋挞

And...I made egg tarts again. haha...I tot I've said that I am not going to make it again for months, but I made it again after 1 week.
这次很厉害，我弄了酥皮蛋挞！弄得还ok,虽然外表有点丑，这一点有待改进。不过，大致上真的还不错，有点沾沾自喜。哈哈！okla,我承认那个皮不是100%我弄的。那个皮是在超级市场买的，然后我只是加工弄成蛋挞而已。虽说如此，这个方法实在是容易很多，以后我这样弄就好了！还有，这次我学聪明了，只弄了6个迷你蛋挞而已，所以不怕吃到怕！

厚颜无耻

强盗甲进了乙家抢了东西。

当时乙生病，无力抵抗，只好让甲抢。

从那天起，强盗甲把乙的东西很光荣地当作自己的东西。

这种厚颜无耻，乙没骂出口，强盗甲却还很开心地把别人的东西当作是自己的。

很多很多年后，乙有礼貌地要求强盗甲归还他当年盗的东西。

强盗甲却跟乙讨论道德伦理，要求乙要仁道，他才愿意归还。

强盗在学别人说道德，说人权。

试问当年抢别人的东西的时候有没有顾过自己的道德和别人的人权？

厚颜无耻，抢了别人的东西已经是错。

占为己有，不愿归更加错。

别人要求归还时，还开出各种条件，诸多刁难，更是错！

错错错错错错错

只有这种厚颜无耻的人才会当自己是正义之士，活在自己的幻想空间，觉得自己很对。

没错，我说的这个厚颜无耻的强盗甲就是法国。

就只有法国才做得出这种厚颜无耻的事情，卖了抢回来的中国国宝，还能强词夺理，跟别人大论道德。多亏你还称自己是礼仪之邦，优雅浪漫。

亲爱的法国，对于你的厚颜无耻，在下真的甘拜下风。

这种厚颜无耻，若法国，您自居第二，我相信一定没有人会敢称第一。

对于阁下的厚颜无耻，在下只能说佩服佩服。

雪人

我的雪人
早就已经死了
其实我有少少不舍得
但是，他还是死掉比较好
别怪我狠心
因为如果他不死
春天就不会来
我早就已经等不及春天的到来了

Everything

词：王力宏 小寒 曲：王力宏

故事裡的 起承轉合 有一些忘記
做了多少錯誤的選擇
原來波折 才暗示著 該走的方向
指引你我來到這一刻
就算 別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

遼闊天際 求和相遇 有多少機率
多少煙火 墜落無痕跡
因為幸福 沒有捷徑 難免要繞道
不被看好 越是要走到
就算 別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

你就是 Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
只要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起

你就是 Everything
就如這個原因 我會永遠記住這種感覺
想給你 Everything
只要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Everything是力宏的新专辑《心.跳》里，其中一首我非常喜欢的歌曲。歌曲MV里其中力宏弹钢琴的几幕更让人深深地吸引住。力宏在我心里从来就不是一个普通的音乐人；他给我的成长过程留下了很多很多的回忆。每次听到Everything,我就联想到很多力宏的其他歌曲(像Forever Love、信任)在我的生活里留下的痕迹。听力宏的歌曲，亲切地像我自己的呼吸。或者这么说，如果少了力宏，我的生命就会变得不完整。也许别人觉得我这么说会有点夸张，但力宏的歌曲给我的意义用这样的方式来形容却一点都不为过。

“你的爱，是我的Everything。”

虾饼

来了英国就快两年
第一次收到我的笨男友给我寄的包裹
里面竟然有一包虾饼
那只是我过年时随口说我想吃而已
没有想到他真的给我寄来
八十多令吉的邮费
无价的心意
我的心里暖暖的

more egg tarts

And I’ve made another batch of egg tarts today. Looks appetizing? Personally, I don’t think so. I’ve added a lot less sugar than the original recipe to the egg filling. But, the filling appears to be too sweet again. This time, I’ve achieved some improvement on the filling, but the base was a huge failure. I just can’t figure out what was wrong as I’ve done it exactly the same as yesterday.

Let’s do some comparison of egg tarts that are made on yesterday’s and today’s.

I don’t think both batches appears to be appetizing….cuz both are failure egg tarts. Eh, why is my egg tarts so ugly????Well, I think go out and buy it will be a lot easier than making in on your own. So, my conclusion is, I’m not going to make egg tarts any more. At least, not going to make it again within months. Probably I should go and learn from Jo Anne from scratch again….but not now la, cuz I’m lack of motivation ald.

Egg Tarts

I’ve spent a whole night baking egg tarts just now. In order to bake the tarts, I bought 1 kg of flour, 1 kg of icing sugar, 2 blocks of unsalted butter and 1 bottle of milk. As I was only baking 1/3 of Jo Anne’s original recipe, I only used up a small amount of my ingredients, for example, 133g of flour. So now, I have so much excess ingredient. Damn...i think those amount of ingredients are enough for me to open egg tart stall on the street!!! Probably I should open a stall in Beeston town and tell ang moh that I’m selling for charity. So, they will ‘donate’ to me. hahahaha

Well, my egg tart is not successful. The filling is too sweet and doesn’t appear to be smooth. I don’t really know what the reason of it is and I shall find out. Right, since I have so many ingredients left, I very tempted to try again this weekend. Hopefully I will success next time!

情人节

我没有过过情人节
不知怎么地，这是不属于的我的季节
第一个情人节，我被超级大笨蛋气得飚泪
第二和第三个情人节，我身在英国
结果，这个特别的日子
在我的生活里，总是那么的平凡
这一次的情人节，我竟然几乎忘了这个日子
反正在这里还是我自己一个人
什么日子又有什么分别?

中学的时候
我总是对这个季节有许多的憧憬
但每次都只是我的幻影
那时我好羡慕别人携影皆双
虽然到现在我还没有过过这个季节
我的梦却少了很多
这是不是说
我已经长大了?

行尸走肉

突然觉得我的生活很行尸走肉
我不想这样下去了
我需要改变

逃兵

这条路太漫长
我走不下去了
请允许我
做个逃兵

白

雪
还没融化
却又再下了
还得去年我望穿秋水
都等不到多少雪
今年我不期待
却遇上了英国18年来最多雪的一个冬天
白茫茫一片的诺丁汉
很美很美

不服

青蛙政治
大马独有的政治景象
妄顾人民利益的政客
往对己有利益的方向跳
将民主玩弄于手掌的政治恶相

亲爱的执政党
虽然你赢了4年的执政权
却输了也负了天下千千万万人民的心
我不服
还有天下千千万万的人不服
要赢，请用光明正大的手段
并非三滥九流的方法
选民不是笨蛋
不容许你们一次又一次无视人民的意愿
我们将你们所说，所做全都记录在心
就算你赢了今天
却输了未来
四年后的下一轮大选
自有分晓

错

错错错错错错错
怎么做
都是错

拍照

难得看到那么多雪

拍照当然是必做的事情

由于天气很冷，所以我全副武装

穿了4层衣服，帽子加眼镜

几乎认不出我自己

雪景

大学的雪景

我从来没有看过那么多雪

雪

漫天飞雪
我在诺丁汉从来没有看过那么多的雪
期待明天早上醒来
外头的积雪还没融化
开心

爱尔兰之旅

我从爱尔兰回来了！去了好多地方，我看见了童话故事里的风景。途中的这个地方叫Connemara, 位于爱尔兰首都, Dublin 西部，大约4个小时的车程。我将这个地方列入我去过最美的地方之一。这里如诗如画，唯一美中不足的是，我们并没有太多时间好好地欣赏这里的风景。也许有一天我会再回来这里，希望我的梦想会成真。向大家大力推荐，这是Connemara, Ireland.

Last paper

I'm not abandoning my blog. But exams is driving me crazy. Tomorrow will be the last paper and very last paper of my uni life. and.....I dont ever ever want to see exams again. i guess....i just wont process my further studies to PhD cuz i just can't stand the exam stress. Being anxiety and insomnia, i just dont want to experience this kind of feelings again. oh well, tmr will be the last paper, wish me good luck!

some randomness

carbonara with mushroom and turkey. huixin can cook!

Trying to capture the details of orange.

My Hello Panda is depleting, while my depressive illness is mounting. Curse exams!

心跳

okla,我承认我这个歌迷做得有一点点失败，力宏出了新专辑我也不知道。不能怪我啦，这全都是因为我在英国，离开亚洲那么远，力宏的唱片公司又没有来这里宣传。SonyBMG 是时候为力宏开拓新市场了，或许来英国也不错！哈哈。

虽然是迟了一点点，但我要在这里隆重推介力宏的新专辑《心跳》。(你看我把照片放得那么大就懂我有多重视了。)请多多支持。

展望和平

我们还在圣诞节祈祷世界和平
没多少天以色列就发动战争
漫天炮火攻击巴勒斯坦
多少年的恩恩怨怨数不清
却还是牺牲无辜百姓的性命
寄望用鲜血来理清
最后只剩下解不开的仇恨
无止境的循环报复
武力无法解决问题
盼望双方尽早觉悟
我真心祈祷
展望和平

tiramisu

The reason I’m posting this picture is because this is my very first tiramisu in Italy (I had it in Florence). I had made up my mind to have a tiramisu every day before I depart for Italy but I didn't manage to do it. However, I do admit that I still had loads of tiramisu in Italy and this is just one of the tiramisus. Although I choose this picture to post in my blog, it doesn’t mean that this tiramisu is heavenly good. Seriously I think this tiramisu cheated my money. It looks like tiramisu but it doesn’t taste like tiramisu at all. It’s just some tasteless creams. Sigh…why did I fall in love in the first sight with it? I’m soooooo regretted to have it.

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